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Sunday, August 1, 2004

11:12AM - Lets try

alright we're gunna go back till like 3 days ago or atleast TRY..

all i know is that im NOT wiht shawn.. thank god.. hmm..i slept over coreys the other night after going to daves with don and him.. then went to bed at 6 in the morning to wake up at 9 then went home.. and had to go to shays.. yeah.. that kinda sucked bcuz lyndsey was mad at me.. but oh well i was over it and so wasn't she.. and we talked bout everything and then nothing really big happened.. i fell asleep and COREY called me at 4:37 in the morning.. oh fucking a.. that was stupid i didn't wake up though.. lyndsey did.. but didn't answer it.. oh well.. he was shitfaced.. so im glad i didn't.. and he was with sarah.. so yeah.. makes it better.. but yeah.. i've been hanging out with him ALOT lately and surprisingly he isn't sick of me.. then yesterday i was at shays .. he showed up bcuz i wanted him 2 .. hung out with him and lyndsey most of the time.. and then bitched at patty! lol yay! then went to his house for maybe 15 minutes or less iuno .. then waiting for tyler to show up.. then got a ride home from don! i mean i LOVE him .. lol.. seriously! then came home.. i got my period! =0( thats soo sad.. i haven't had it all summer.. but atleast its only a week long.. oh well.. then sat on my ass for a couple hours.. talked to larry till corey called me.. then kept going back and forth.. then got WICKED sick.. talked to corey at like 1? till like 2? and sarah flipped a nut.. but i could give a shit less.. then went to bed.. and then today im SUPOSED to hang out with corey and go some where wit him.. but iuno.. yet..i gotta see how my periods gunna do today..stupid thing! lol.. yeah.. my life kinda sucks lately.. but thats my last 3 days.. ill update again in 3 days! l8r loves!









ill make love to you <3

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Saturday, July 24, 2004

4:11PM

alot of things are different since my last entry.. im no longer with shawn.. we lasted 2 weeks.. and then he dumped me and i finally met my long lost love adam <3 hes perfect .. i love every minute im with him.. its amazing.. just to look at someone and just kiss them and know that im not alone and i wont be for a while except we're not 2 good right now bcuz i wanna be with him more then the world.. to kno hes mine and no other girl can have him but iuno if i can take the pain that i knows gunna come with this..iuno.. i can't figure it out.. but yeah .. i love him and im bored so l8r

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Tuesday, June 22, 2004

8:16PM

a lot of time has gone by ... hmm i dont even remember anything.. all i know is that im with the love of my life * shawn * 6.21. * im soo fucking happy but in a way im not.. im not gunna see him like everyday like i wish.. but i hope i can stand this me and jasmine were fightign yah i've been hanging out wtih shay and kaykay ALOT lately.. it rox.. but thats okay.. yeah..corey and lyndsey broke up ... stupid fag.. ME AND PAT ARE FRIENDS .. not fuck buddys.. just friends and me and larry are kinda good.. hes been makin me mad lately.. whatever .. me and jasmine are STILL fighting.. thats okay.. doesn't matter but im out .. lataaaaaaaaaaz!!!!

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Wednesday, May 26, 2004

8:52PM

i love you and miss you more then anything.
im sorry i ever hurt you in any way.
i wish i could take it back..

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Sunday, May 9, 2004

4:31PM

i like big butts and i cannot lie
POP. lol.
i got new bra`s not that you care
lol
wow.
im bored
later dude!

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Saturday, May 8, 2004

6:16PM

wow good shit today!! lol
larry i love you!

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Friday, May 7, 2004

10:24PM

wow tonight was an ill night. lol mad good times. joe almost fucking died. good times. with megan or course. sarah rizza and whoever because i can't spell her name is maaaaad chill. yeah thats all you really need to know.
im bored and horny. i need pat. lol.. =0) you like it.
i need to talk to larry. he told me he'd call me. but lied. ;(
oh well. *tear tear*
later dudes

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6:03AM

the game of life its hard to play im gunna lose it anyway...
this is all i have to say
suicide is painless
brings on many changes

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Wednesday, May 5, 2004

6:41PM - hOlY sMoKeS! lol gOsH oH mIgHtY! lol

well.. lets see.. me and matt broke up like twice i did shit with shawn .. oh boy.. lol good times just wrong time.. lol.. oh well then we went out for like 3 days then i went back out with matt then broke up with matt or w/e yeahh.. then i was single.. now i like pat ! hmm sexii.. lol.. and nick flores likes me .. hmmm sexii.. holy shit .. sexii men.. i love my life.. yeahh.. which was cool i got my hair dyed im just waiting till i can take pictures again and youll see it .. its like a bright auburn.. it rocks.. but thats kay..yeahh and now chrysta's like why aren't you happy for me.. FUCK THAT.. deffinitly fuck that .. hahah you've gotta be joking .. shes with matt now and she knows im pissed and i dont know why shes talking to me .. ehh.. whatever.. this is gay.. im just gunna go get used by someone and become a hoe.. works for both of us.. yeahh.. umm.. yeahh.. my life pretty much like blows right now and i need to talk to larry.. oh yeahh i got wicked tight with him hes like my best friend.. which rocks and im waiting for him to call .. or someone to call then go out side and take some fucking rage out.. like crazy but ill be fine .. i guess .. i haven't slept in like 3 days because i've been on the phone with larry and pat the last 3 days .. which is okay because i love em both.. lol.. yeahh.. and im bored and horny.. not that you care .. this is sooo bullshit .. but thats okay .. i met a new friend i forgot.. chelsi albert.. hmmm sexii bitch.. lol... she deffinitly is.. anyone would say soo.. shes so nice too.. i dont know how i remember her .. lol prolly when i was going out with shawn or something .. and now im on the fone with jasmine listening to some song.. sounds cool so far .. its a song to shawn edward yule!.. he comes back tomorrow .. hes suspended.. what a dumb fuck .. yeah.. oh well.. doesn't matter .. i just almost thought all of this got deleted or something .. holy shit .. oo boy.. lol.. yeahh .. anyways.. im getting really bored and amber wants to read this long ass thing.. so ill write tomorrow morning before school or something with what happened tonight.. later ( tomorrow wont be as long im tired of typing my life )

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Saturday, April 10, 2004

12:33PM

Lets start with monday..

I was sick monday
Went to school late tuesday hung out with matt left me cell with him opps
wednesday nothing big i dont think besides me getting mad at matt
thursday nothing i slept all day
friday i saw my baby even though he was late people wanted to fight but it turned out good
saturday going out with lauren,jeff,heather. awesome~! loll

laterrrrrrrrrrr

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Friday, April 2, 2004

9:57PM - OmGz!!!

I just got home from the movies.
lemme just say .. holy fuck me.
lol
megans over.
so yeahhhhh


i love matt.
later

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Thursday, April 1, 2004

8:01PM - mUaHhH

My House Flooded. (lol) My Baby Called me today. His sisters a slut bag. Umm.
I Love my Baby. No ones gunna change that seriously. Alex was all pissed off when he found out i wasn't going to dump Matt for anyone.

i love you baby.
3/31
hehe. soooo happy.

Later.

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Wednesday, March 31, 2004

2:57PM - ahhhhhhh lol

matt asked me out this morning. wahoo.
alex found out from big mouth ( lauren )
now hes mad at me. that sucks. he was my bffe.
lol and people were like umm a punk kid
im like YEAH. lol. hes so sexy. lol i can't help it
yeah.
i love MY matthew. lol so fuck you.
3/31 lol .. yep. lol

josh and josh suck balls.

thats my dayyyy

oh yeah.. its raining.. kill yourself rain.

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Monday, March 29, 2004

6:51PM

as my lipstick
washing away from your cheak
down to your belt
i wonder what really happened
while the lights were dimmed.


- kinda gets the mind going. lol -

yeah i hung out wiht josh M , Josh F , and Brandon. very cool kids
except for JOsh M now becuase hes mad at me for being a slut. which i didn't do anthing because of my period. so suck my balls.
yeah that was my day

oh yeah i have my period
LICK MY BALLS
bitch
lol

<33 matts sexy

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Sunday, March 28, 2004

11:02AM - i just dont care

its been the worst day of my life today.
my mom just kicked the computer screen. then took a hammer to it. wtf.
crazy motha fukka. and now she doesn't want me living here. which is fucking awesome.
shes my fucking guardian or w/e so she has to keep me if she likes it or not.
its not as easy as she wants everything to be.
just to be like i dont want you and me be gone. because her look on life is no different then anyone else's. she doesn't have a clue how much i cry or what hurts me inside or anything. and wont ever know. its like she doesn't even know me anyways so why does it all matter to her anyways what i do or what i say or how i live. its not like she had anything to do with me growing up. in my opinion it was really me raising my self to be how i am today and im the reason i am what i am. no one else. its no ones fault i can't love anyone or anything else. i've learned to not know how. and yet again no one can stand me but to my face they love me with all the world but behind my sorry worthless back im nothing to them, just a girl in this so totally fucked up world. i dont really understand it. its just hard to really know what to do or what to say to make myself look cool or be nice or anything when really i just want to lay in my bed forever never move, and lay in my tears. For the last 13 years, I've lived with these things called parents which really you couldn't really call them that because they dont have a clue on what their child is really doing. All the drugs,fights,hate everything that goes on in the world today. No one really has a clue. But they just say they do because they want to feel like there a part of the childs life. But behind closed doors its like a horrible horror story. Called "Nothing More then a Abused Child."
Thats pretty much how it goes.
I want to some day soon write a book on it. But im not sure if i should.


Should i?
Comment me and Tell me whats up.
Later

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Friday, March 26, 2004

3:28PM - My Love.

Lauren. My new Love.
I Love You Darling.
MwAhZz!

Joe Nolan Sucks Cock.

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Thursday, March 25, 2004

6:46PM - Sluts.

Girls are Sluts.
Guys are Pricks.
Im a Pathetic Girl.
So Suck My Dick.
Oh Wait.
I Put Out.
My bad.

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6:02AM - morning.

umm .. just getting ready i guess for another horrible day of my fucked up life. prolly gunna get bitched at .. like always for something i didn't do.

yanno that feeling thats just like you wanan die just like randomly .. well mines not random ..

i wanna fucking die. badly
someone wanna kill me?


Later.

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Wednesday, March 24, 2004

8:00PM - no one really knows

nothing happened i really dont care either

got punched in the face by my mom ..

umm dan jus called me and leaves me a voice mail that goes : i dont like you i was just using you for a peice of ass .. dont call me dont text me dont fucking talk to me nothing peace :

dude that just fucking sucks ass seriously .. that just pisses me off like wicked bad .. but w/e i really dont fucking care anymore im sick of htis bullshit

fuck this
peace


;[
wanna play a game...
shoot me and ill scream?

Current mood: crushed
Current music: my tears falling from my cheaks
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Monday, March 22, 2004

8:00PM - your so predictable

wellllllllll ... i woke up at like 9 this morning opps my bad i missed the bus then i stayed home longer ... then walked to god damn school .. not that anyone cares .. lol but kay. lol went to school came home .. hung out ... dan baker fucking called me lol talked to him .. heather wanted me to hang out with her jason and dan and pimpie lol. so i went over there .. hung out with sexy oh man. lol we cuddled it was cute it wasn't like nick who was like SEX!!!! lol hhaha but nicks a cool guy. yeah so me and dan i guess look cute together and theres gunna be a hook up i guess lol. its kay though because hes hot and he seems sweet. and i've known him for a while kinda i've chilled with him before which was cool. but we weren't as close. he was asking me like every question he knew. lol. it was cute though. lol he is wicked chill. lol and jason and heather raping each other of course. lol its kay though. oh well. yeahhh.. umm i came home at like 7:30. dan and pimpie drove me home. i think they went to some chicks house. who knows. but he lives in pelham and hes 17 but its all good. oh well. <33
but yeah thats all that happened
it sucked.

NICKS a loser and doesn't know wtf is going on?
lol .. sorry but its maaaaad true!!!!

Current mood: bouncy
Current music: Square Dance - Eminem
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